so far. in perspective.

look whos back! heyheyhey.

its been a loooong absence, i know. i miss all my frens.i miss my tuition kids.i miss my long nights.i miss movie-marathonning.i miss alot of things. well april til june was one hell of a hectic timespan. school, exams, Moksha practices and preparations, MOKSHA on june 2nd. and i took a good one week to catch up with my all-impt sleep! got back not long ago from the chalet party. they had bbq food, cold drinks, and a dance floor with a great sound system. i liked that. so we danced away, frm 9plus til 1040pm. it was fun. left the really ulu Fairy point Bungalow 1 and came back to my sweet haven, my home. luckily, for once i stayed near, at Bedok. i had alot to smile about as a result, while all my other frens were panicking and worrying abt getting home. :)

well these few mths have made me realise a couple of things. politics is one thing. and den comes time management. and den parents, and how much they need u to spend time with them.this has been overstated since 2yrs back, i know. sometimes it feels like they are leeches stuck onto u. i guess i had been childish. sometimes it feels like they know too much. it feels like they just wana rule over u. But, at the end of the day. i guess my parents do realise they have to let go off me, bit by bit. they were the ones who asked me to go for the chalet today. but i didnt wanna stay anyway. no matter how much i fight with them, i really treasure them, i wldnt be who i am today if not for them. i swear.

ive a new fren. i call him "white specs" fondly :) knew him since april, thru a tamil talk show. been talking, going out places since then. and surprisingly, we bumped into each other at the mariamman temple a few weeks back, and thus he met my mum, exchanged some words with her. best part, he wanted to intro me to his dad and bro, cos he was there becos his cousin was getting married. initially iwas like, no way why must i see yr bro and father etc.. but he kept saying, pls pls. so i was like fine. saw his dad, shook hands, exchanged a few sentences, mum said hi to him, his bro was looking at us frm a corner. so that was that.

Moksha came. the 2 daysbefore moksha, was Vesak day. very gd, i called him to come follow me so i can buy clothes. he was a great help, trust me. he was telling me wad style to choose, wad colours to get, wad kind of pants wil suit me, wad kind of tube, chain, he patiently waited for me to change into the clothes and asked me to show him after wearing them..like he was the only guy there la haha..etc.. so yeah after checking out the entire bugis 3-4times, we went to dhoby this fashion, and ta da! found all the necc items. den went back with him to JP, got some accessories and an exciting chain, and went back to school. a GREAT day it was. den Moksha came. he came with his troop of friends who were dressed in pink, but he was dressed smartly, long sleevedshirt and pants, but unshaven, haahahah. so he saw my parents after the show at the reception, (i was backstage all the while so i didnt know wad was happening) thus he stepped out of this circle of frens and bravely went to talk to my mum and said hi to my dad. apparently he kept talking to my mum and not much to dad, so dad was like hmm. hewas telling abt his work, his sore eye and all that to mum. so than i finally came to the reception told him thks for making it to the show and we all left and he went back to meet his frens. so that day was over. the day after moksha, he asked me out to angmokio to catch a dance comp, and so i went. he said he was wearing black and white, and so i followed suit, was careful not to wear heels. (: the show was okay. he was keeping me company, met a few ppl i knew. he was looking out for any probs guys mite pose. he made me feel like i wasnt alone there so yeah, that was gd, tho his frens were there too. he followed me back to Bedok, and he wentback home himself. (=

so now..sat is just born. he had a guest performance yesterday at toapayoh cc, kept asking me to go for it, but i cldnt.i do feel bad til now. he immediately called me at 11pm to ask where i was, and whether i was home safetly. :)

thts all for now. my parents do find him nice, respectful and well-spoken. just dun wan history to repeat itself so i am just gg to be cautious. i dun wan him to get serious abt anything as yet. and ill want to be his best fren for now, ive mentioned this to him... :) nth beats a great friendship, and i knw he is a nice soul.. and i know he wld treasure me deeply. he always says " i miss u alot more den u do.."

for me to continue, give me some time. perhaps after sun i wld update my blog again.

love each and everyone of u. pls take care.

Revat